I’ve been battling depression for the past 4 years, high school never helping, never having a friend I could trust enough to tell my problems to, and everytime I’ve discussed an issue with either parent, they just make it worse, so I stopped sharing my issues and inner dilemmas altogether. I’ve even become someone people come to discuss their issues with, but nobody really knows my inner feelings.
It hasn’t gotten any better for me, and there’s times where I go completely dead on the inside and just autopilot through a few days. I don’t talk about anything going on with my life with anyone, I just can’t trust anyone, for good reason, I’ve been betrayed enough.
I think I all have to say is, even though I have people around me at all times, I don’t really have a friend I can just talk to, and the feeling is only fueling my depression.
Over the past month, I have been kept up at night struggling to stop thinking about suicide. I can barely fight my thoughts away, and I can feel myself changing and hurting everyone around me.
I have nobody to turn to, and the only thing I have to live for is setting an example for my little brother that suicide isn’t the answer.
