Horrible sinner i’m. Tried to use and manipulate God again to give me more mammon etc. niceties and boost me. Have done this before and i’m sorry and i want to repent. Also i’ve been acting very badly towards Him often times. He is my Most Beloved, i never want to mess with Him again, but obey and please Him forever. Blind and deaf idiot i’m, even lying to myself and God..
