I think it’s a crazy notion that I ran into a young woman who I first met when we were 5 or 6 years old, again when we were early 20’s, and I can’t speak for her, I don’t know what she felt, if she felt, but for me she was a good thing in my life. Even just the thought of her was good for me, but we see each other years later, we run into each other and it was something. There was something there on some level both ways. I’m my opinion, even without talking to each other, but it’s crazy to think that for all I know I just happened to catch her on a girls night out, and she was engaged to be married.

I didn’t have it great at home myself, it could have been worse, my parents were screwed up, my old man drank and screwed a few things up and he was an a****** to me, my mother was alright but my parents had a big family who did care and we were good when it came down to it. I got my a** a** kicked by the old man a few times, but aside from that, like I said, it was rough sometimes but I was good. I never knew or even thought about if she was alright at home. I guess I just assumed it was good. I guess I assumed I was the only one I knew whose parents were splitting and my life was changing. Her mom seemed like a nice lady, she would volunteer at school for things, she seemed no different than my own mother. I assumed she was good, I never even once saw her day, she had one I know that, but who knows what her family life was like? I know her sister’s alright now. She seems alright.

I might assume too much, I honestly leaned way more toward “she doesn’t care, time to start a new life and get her it” than “this probably hurts her” but I kind of hope it didn’t hurt her when I left. On the other hand, if it did hurt and she still feels it, I’m alright with that and I’m still there for her. I can’t deny the same and no matter what I think it’s special and I’m lucky to have felt what I did where I did from the start. That was love. Early. Im f****** glad I had that and didnt start where I went after, to be completely honest. That would have been a rip off.