I honestly hate my fucking life. I have a job, go to college(This'll be my third year) and play games. But I honestly hate myself and my life. The only

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I honestly hate my f****** life.
I have a job, go to college(This’ll be my third year) and play games.

But I honestly hate myself and my life. The only friends I have live like 40 minutes away. Ones a guy and ones a girl. I am very attracted to her and really like her. I hate the term. But I guess I am friendzoned. She would rather flirt and try and date people she has never met or never will meet. Like right now her gf lives in the western US some where and we live in bfe Ohio. She knows I like her and s*** but ugh,
My dad is about to die. I should be f****** happy. I hate his pathetic a** life. What hes done to me, my sister, and our mom. I can never forgive him. But I am depressed that he is going to die soon even tho I hate him. Idk why.
But the main thing getting to me right now is being alone. I have no friends in this town I live in. Everyday I am alone I go to work come home and do nothing. I have no friends I have no life.
And my 2 friends who live away are always off doing stuff with each other, and i feel so left out. Like they are always watching movies or eating. And I am always here alone.
I honestly dont know why I am typing this. I just want some attention probably. But I could really use a friend to like talk to. cause I cant talk to my friends. I really like one. And the other just says you could have it worse, you could be me.

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Last week my aunty Vivian visited. I love netlike my own mom. How about a bath before lunch? She asked? Sure I said . I’ma 13 yr old girl but aunty does a “special” bath . Sometimes my mommy is in the room and sometimes Billy my step brother. O just close my eyes and enjoy. She fills the hot tub and I get in. Here sweetie. Sit on this soft seat. It only left my Fanny in a little water. She started at my feet. She knew I was ticklish and went slowly teeen each toe. Since my legs were spread open she slipped her soapy hands up my thighs to cup my peepee. Have to per sweetie? No aunty. Back to my feet. I loved her soapy hands on my feet. My peeee got all tingly. I dawmy little t****** n****** getting stiff snd rubbed my palms over my breasts. Your toes marking your. Peepee tingle a little? I’m hummed I said. Take a deep breath and hold it. I did so. Hrrr soapy hands on my slid up my leg, scratched my thigh a little, slid onto my peepee and quickly plunged up into my peepee hole. The hot hard pain speared my brain. Oooooowwweewwe I yelled.i lookkedddoen to see blood in the water. Auntys finger was deep inside my peepee hole. She was moving her finger in and out and out. O more pain. She them washed my t******, my Fanny, and I stood to dry. She held me close and whispered to me. Now your peepee is worth gold seeetie. Lots of gold.

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