it’s eating me up inside. i feel sick, disgusting, and hypocritical. i love you so much, i can’t believe i put myself in that situation, let alone sought it out. i feel so ashamed and despicable. i’m so sorry. i will see a counselor. i hate myself. i made a big mistake and i swear i’ve learned from it. i am silently begging for your forgiveness; my heart is aching from the guilt, lapse in judgment, and shame. i feel so dirty and vile. i didn’t “go all the way,” but did enough to warrant a divorce. i cannot believe it. i want to go into hiding. i wish it never happened. i feel like i have a stain on my soul. i love you. i’m truly, wholeheartedly, sincerely, very, very, very sorry.