I’m angry. I’m sad. I’m confused. And I’m exhausted. I don’t know how much more of this I can take. I’m a ticking time bomb. It’s not a matter of “if” it’s a “when” at this point. I can feel myself slipping into another breakdown. And I don’t know what to do. I think for now I’m just going to cry in my car. I wish I had a support system but no one understands. They always just tell me to s*** it up. As if that’s not what I’ve been trying do. I f****** hate my genetics…
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tAKE MEDS
Yeaaah no. I can’t. The affects anti depression meds have on me is minimal. But the side effects however are not. I legit don’t want to sleep when I’m on meds because they induce nightmares. Which leads to me getting no sleep and being miserable in an entirely different way. What I need is an actual support system that doesn’t treat my illness like a contagious disease. But my family sucks and my friends don’t get it. So here I am. A hot mess.
You will find people who will love you unconditionally. They’re out there. It takes time to get to know others; trust must be earned. Don’t appear too desperate because some people enjoy exploiting that in others. Do you have a hobby you enjoy and could meet new people through get togethers?
Legally prescribed psych meds are not always the answer. Most will do more long term harm than good to your brain.
There are many different meds. It takes time to find the right one or combination. Don’t give up. Unless you’re that guy who wants to kill fat women. If you are please do give up.