Everyday, I live my life, going to school, coming home from school. It’s the same repetitive cycle everyday. I have no close friends, and the very few that I do have, cannot relate to me in any way; they feel like acquaintances who befriend me out of pity. My grades have been plunging downwards, and I have no confidence whatsoever. When I seek for advice, all I get are, “It’s alright! You’re gonna get better!” or “Join a club”. Well, no, I haven’t gotten better throughout time, in fact, I’ve gotten worse. I did try joining a club, but I know no one there, and no one there wants to take the initiative to know me. I know posting this is probably futile because I’m probably going to get stuff like “Grow up!” “You don’t have it worst in this world”, stuff like that. When I was younger, people used to actually like me, but as I’m older, no one wants to be close to me. Most people only talk to me when we’re alone, but when they’re with others, I’m left behind. And when I try to barge into their conversations, I am ignored, like the pathetic loser I am. Maybe I do really need to grow up and get a life, heh.
