i got caught cheating on my wife last year and we have made amends and things have been well. but recently i was at a work event and had moderate amount of drinks and went to a massage parlor where i had s** with a young masseuse. while intoxicated it felt good but i feel extremely guilty becuase im trying to live an honest life after the affair. i feel i have a bad s***** addiction when i am drinking. i stopped drinking earlier this year and lately have started picking it up, not heavily though. i m in my 40s and im very attracted to 20 year old girls. and my wife is in her 40s as well. i dont know whats wrong with me and need help.