We have been married almost 6 years and have an amazing almost 3 year old son. Things have been rocky in my marriage for over a year now because of resentment I have against my husband for the bad things he has done to betray me and harm our marriage. I have never done anything to betray him, but I’ve caught him in multiple lies and I’ve caught him talking to women (romantically) from his home state more than once as well and it all came to a head about a year ago. As far as he tells me, he has had no such interaction or relationship with anybody local, and never PHYSICALLY cheated, but I have a hard time trusting that. I’ve found no evidence of anything in a year, but still can’t trust him 100% and find myself always wondering. Because of all this I am almost not attracted to him at all anymore.

For the past few months I have befriended a cute guy who works at the local Subway. Recently things became flirty, but nothing beyond that. I feel kind of bad but I actually enjoy going to see him and chatting with him, today for the first time he actually greeted me with a “Wow, you look very pretty today… Prettier than normal.” Which, not gonna lie, I really enjoyed. It doesn’t cross my mind to actually cheat but yet it’s not like I plan to stop going to see him either. There’s a piece in the back of my mind that feels guilty for enjoying it. Am I a terrible person?