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I’ve been cheating on my boyfriend for a month with a slightly older guy I met through a dating website. This will be the third guy that I’ve participated in intimate relations with, while still officially dating my boyfriend. I don’t understand why I do this – maybe i like the thrill, the excitement, the secret, the feeling of being desired. But now i have become dissatisfied with both – I’m always looking for something more. I’m afraid I’ll never be able to find true and stable love because of my own fault, my own selfishness and restlessness. My current boyfriend, he’s so nice and great, but I’ve gotten too familiar with him, everything has gotten to be the same, and now we’re in a semi-argument over something silly. The guy I’m seeing doesn’t know about my boyfriend, of course, but I don’t know how long I can hide it. I can’t stop comparing the two of them, their looks, heights, habits, etc. etc. I need to work all of this out in myself, be more secure in my own skin, and be honest and open. I don’t want to live entangled in lies forever. But on top of all of this, I think I’m Christian, so I feel even more guilt. I think God will condemn me to hell for my transgression. But I also wanted to experiment and trespass, so to speak, test out the limits of my own conscience and morality. I don’t know. I just want to be loved, I want to love. Why am I doing all of this?

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My wife and I are small in stature, I’m 5’4″ and she is 4’10” weighs 78 lb . When she was going to have our second child the doctor sent us to King Edward Memorial Hospital in Perth because our baby in her 8th month had wrapped the umbilical cord around her neck. We met an interesting huge black man who was in Neonatal care in the US there who invited us to dinner at the Hostel he stayed at. He rubbed my wife’s tummy while talking after we ate, after while she sat on his lap. It turned me on to seeing her so small and pregnant so close to his enormous c0ck. While we stayed close to the hospital we visited him a few times per week. Each time feeling her tummy while she sat on his lap his hand drifted closer to her gnitals and b00bs. We went to his room when she was 9 months and three days, he said when she was that close to delivering she could take even his c0ck easily. I said “Baby you used to tell me you would like to know what a big c0ck was like, he is offering you that chance.” she said “What if you aren’t enough after I do it?” . I just said something like we’ll figure it out I want to see you at you’re best. It didn’t take more the 5 minutes after the conversation he had licked her pu55y and started stuffing 10″ of c0ck the size of a redbull can inside her. She couldn’t take the whole thing till she 0rgasmed 3 minutes into s** that lasted25 minutes the first time. While his 1oad was running out of her and he was sucking her nipple5 I encouraged her to take advantage of the situation and do it again. They let me record the next time on my iPhone , 34 minutes, we had a*** s** right after. I didn’t know they had s** while I slept till the next morning when I awoke and she was sleeping with him. When Our daughter was born three days later she said they had s** 11 times and she wanted to do it again before we went home. I agreed to more of their alone time. When Our daughter was two, my wife asked me for permission to be bred by him. I said if I can but a whole redbull can inside you then okay. She couldn’t take more than 1/2 when we started but she could when he bred her 4 months later, we have a 3 year old b******** son, my wife already s**** him off.

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