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I’m a Christian introvert who doesn’t want relationships. You see, the Christian faith is all about relationships and unconditional love. This was all modeled by Jesus himself. My issue is Not with Him. I believe everything He said is right and true. My problem is that the core of the Christian faith is “Love”. Its the greatest commandment he gave and I just realized that after 20 years as a Christian, I’m never going to Love people. To me, people are just needy, emotional black wholes ready to s*** the very life force out of me. Everyone wants something! Plus, nothing scares me more than being totally “transparent” with others. I don’t really want anyone knowing by deepest self. To be honest, I don’t even want to know my deepest self much less being vulnerable to others. But that’s exactly what the faith requires. I know beyond the shadow of a doubt that Jesus is God, im not here to debate that, what I’m saying is that I cant seem ( I don’t even want to want to change) live out this part. So it seems like im the bankerupt noise symbols the bible talks about.

New Confession

My wife and I are small in stature, I’m 5’4″ and she is 4’10” weighs 78 lb . When she was going to have our second child the doctor sent us to King Edward Memorial Hospital in Perth because our baby in her 8th month had wrapped the umbilical cord around her neck. We met an interesting huge black man who was in Neonatal care in the US there who invited us to dinner at the Hostel he stayed at. He rubbed my wife’s tummy while talking after we ate, after while she sat on his lap. It turned me on to seeing her so small and pregnant so close to his enormous c0ck. While we stayed close to the hospital we visited him a few times per week. Each time feeling her tummy while she sat on his lap his hand drifted closer to her gnitals and b00bs. We went to his room when she was 9 months and three days, he said when she was that close to delivering she could take even his c0ck easily. I said “Baby you used to tell me you would like to know what a big c0ck was like, he is offering you that chance.” she said “What if you aren’t enough after I do it?” . I just said something like we’ll figure it out I want to see you at you’re best. It didn’t take more the 5 minutes after the conversation he had licked her pu55y and started stuffing 10″ of c0ck the size of a redbull can inside her. She couldn’t take the whole thing till she 0rgasmed 3 minutes into s** that lasted25 minutes the first time. While his 1oad was running out of her and he was sucking her nipple5 I encouraged her to take advantage of the situation and do it again. They let me record the next time on my iPhone , 34 minutes, we had a*** s** right after. I didn’t know they had s** while I slept till the next morning when I awoke and she was sleeping with him. When Our daughter was born three days later she said they had s** 11 times and she wanted to do it again before we went home. I agreed to more of their alone time. When Our daughter was two, my wife asked me for permission to be bred by him. I said if I can but a whole redbull can inside you then okay. She couldn’t take more than 1/2 when we started but she could when he bred her 4 months later, we have a 3 year old b******** son, my wife already s**** him off.

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