I have been really depressed over the past year. My social life has taken a huge dive, and I’ve neglected everything. My health, my family, my friends.

The only person I was in contact with is my girlfriend. She is a beautiful soul who literally helped me to stay alive and not take my own life.

Now that I’m starting to get better, and the clouds are clearing – I can see just how much pain and suffering I’ve caused her. She’s near her wits end. She’s suffered so much because of me.

I want to spoil her rotten. I want to cook for her every day. I want to look her in the eye and make her believe just how beautiful I find her. I want to lick her armpits, s*** her toes, and then when she’s resting after we’ve made love – I’ll go and prepare breakfast for her.

I pray that I’m not too late. I don’t know how I will cope if , through my depression, I’ve hurt her beyond repair.

I feel like a worthless worm for letting someone who genuinely loves me suffer so much. Why was I depressed? Why couldn’t I just do everything she said and made both of us happy?