I slept with a man who is not my boyfriend. He also has a girlfriend. I’m not sure if I’m in love with him or if it’s just lust. But I’ve never been so unbelievably attracted to someone. I can’t help myself around him. I know he’s bad for me but I can’t stay away. I can’t help but want to be with him, always, even though I know I wouldn’t be happy. Maybe I just want him to confess some sort of feelings for me. I have no idea how he feels (other than, obviously, that he wants to have s** with me). But I know he would never leave his girlfriend. He’s too comfortable. Not one for passion and feelings, despite last night…. I don’t know what to do. I can handle the guilt of one drunken night, that I’ve admittedly been dreaming about for a year.. I don’t know if I can handle the guilt of this constant desire I have for a man who is not my boyfriend. Kill me now.