I had a fight with my mom about me disrespecting here rules a month ago she said to me make a choice your family or you leave this house so i made the choice to leave the house she then said i will give you 1 month to find your own place.
after the first week i found a place and when i wanted to leave she dint want me to she lets talk it over and see how it goes but i was still angry at here for saying that i had to make a choice so i said no ‘m leaving it made her cry and i as a man cant stand it when a woman cries so i stay’d 1 more day but i already told here ‘m still leaving this house so the next day she tried to keep me home (every mother would try and do that) but i was still angry at here so i left.

its 3 / 4 weeks later now and i haven’t spoken to her since i left the house and i am a mess (not using drugs or drinking) in my mind all ‘m thinking of is why did i do this i know how much i hurt here and its killing me from the inside out and i don’t know what to do i am to afraid to face here now because i know how much i hurt here.

i yust don’t know what to do know i feel a bit beter after typed this so at least i feel a bit better after this confession .