Can I just do what makes me, me and not have to explain myself? Everyday I face this social pressure that’s slowly killing me and telling me that who I am is wrong.
I’m a girl so it’s wrong to not want to think about marriage
Its wrong to not want to have kids
Its wrong if I’m trying out kayaking or hiking or sky diving instead of cooking
Its wrong that I want to lead
It’s wrong that I don’t wear make-up
It’s wrong that I don’t take my current boyfriend as a potential husband
I’m also wrong if I think that girl-girl relationships or guy-guy relationships are ok
I’m wrong if I prefer my own company and am not allowed to choose to be an introvert
It’s wrong to accept other religion
I’m wrong that I like books too much
It’s wrong if I think us youngsters deserve just as much or at least some respect for our opinions and effort

I am sick of it. Sick and tired of having to explain myself over and over and over. I deserve to be selfish. This is my life. My choices. I’ve my own image of the woman I want to be. A woman that doesn’t fall into shape of what the people in my society pressures me to be. I am young and I am free. I’m allowed to want to act crazy. To kiss a few boys before I settle down. To let my hair down loose. To wear whatever and not be judged. I am me. I am me. I am me. I just wish I don’t have to remind myself of that.