I asked her to hang out with me and she was super excited. It was a great day, we made cookies, watched movies, and listened to some stellar music. Then we started talking a bit and she was telling me about her crush. It was actually really cute because she was getting all flustered and red in the face. She agreed to send me a text with the name of her crush because she was embarrassed to say it out loud, understandable.

I was actually thinking about confessing to her that night so deep down I was really hoping the name she texted me was going to be mine. It wasn’t and I was definitely bummed but I also felt glad that she trusted me enough to tell me. I really like her, actually I might even love her, so I just want her to be happy and the guy she likes is super awesome so I feel good about helping them get together.

But of course there’s that part of me deep down that really wished it was my name in that text. I knew it was unlikely, but I let myself get excited and now I’m paying the price. Man I’m bummed.