I’m 19 I’ve had s** with 11 people only three of them I knew personally, the rest of them are men I met online. People tell me how pretty I am and that I can have any man I want…(if) I’m so pretty why is it so hard to find someone I want to be with. I know I’m pretty but I’m more than just a face. I lost my virginity underneath the school stairs when I was sixteen. I love s** but it’s starting to become a problem. I haven’t had any since May it’s October. I bought a v******* thinking it would stop my problems. For a second it did until today I touched myself in a public place it didn’t last long but I got a rush out it. I can’t stop thinking about s** or m***********. Even when I’m around family I think about it. I even fantasize about having s** with people I don’t find attractive. Maybe I’m a drama queen maybe I need help or maybe I need to have s** again….thinking about it now I think this is happening to me because I’m lonely. I know have the rest of my life to fall in love but I feel empty without it. I even thought about going somewhere just to get felt up. But my inner voice is saying no. It feels good letting this out it really does. Everything happens for a reason maybe the universe is saving me.