but..shocking of all. I DID get a shower. and cleaned my hair..and washed my body..and brushed my teeth. i do need to make an appt with the dentist. to get my teeth cleaned. Ugh….not looking forward to that day. 🙁 save me…..mr Tooth brush

Don’t tell anyone everybody. I am a tinge off my rocker. I am moody. I had EXCESSIVLY high blood sugar all day. add that to a very unstable…..brain of a schizophrenic. and you got the PERFECT STORM

did you all know….i have a tiny little mental health diagnosis? its hard to believe. shocking truth be told. I have shhhhh…”Schizophrenia”

its 1:52 am. and i might head down stairs…to exercise. but it would give me a boost. not a sleepy pill. i need sleep.

do lazy bums…ever get rich? lol….:D i don’t think so. but i sure hope.

truth is….i hate to work. and heavy exercise..isnt FUN. i dont like doing things…that is not fun . lol. yep. its true ladies and gents. i’m a lazy b**. 🙂

its safe where i live. should i …go downstairs…to the fitness center? or should i ….not go? mmmmm…to be or not to be. that is the question. 😀 lol

plus i was drinking Diet coke….past 2 pm. that also…is an irritatnt…and stimulant. 🙁 yikes. help help help.

i’m sleepy. i really should go to bed. (but i kinda feel this need to exercise) omg. i’m crrrrazy. but sokay. i’m fun 😀

diabetes is killing me. my high sugar plays havoc with my brain. I need to see my doctor. grrrrrr….i hate going in. But my A1C is i think….gone higher. I’m skeeerewd

i could take my portable radio..and just exericse my frustration away. I am angry. at my BF. my life. evvvvverything. angers me. lol….but….sokay. that fitness center…is available tomorrow. i might use it .

i am half tempted to go to the gym right now. or would have. they are open 24 hours a day. I like that. but then again….i could use the on site….fitness center here at my home. mmmm….its an idea.

Tomorrow/Today now. New Goals. 1. Exercise at pLanet Fitness. 2 sit down..and make a menu plan. 5 days. of true healthy foods. 3. Join Eharmony

i’m just….in need of a salad. Yep. Salad is good for the body.

i find when i exercise…i feel better. my mood is much improved. my attitude..is also….much more agreeable. Because right now..i’m a b****. i’m not my normal nice self.

oh help. i need to really exercise. get some blood pumping. but Its gotta be someting….i can’t use the treadmill. i need to use the bike? ok. what else can be used int eh gym..for blood pumping fun?

my hair is sooo dull. Drab brown. i need color. Something to bring me to life. i need a job. I need money. I need a new path in life. Career. :D…the thing is. I can’t work. MY feet bleed. Diabetes is killing me. i’m on disability. I”d LOVE to...

i feel so dull and drab. just dull and drab. Frumpy. i feel frumpy. MIddle aged. I”m sooo unhappy . will things ever get better again?

Ps…Im dumping your a**. You cold fish . litterally . in 5 wasted years of my life..you have never invited me to do anything. Never once . I deserve better than you. You deserve a w****. Serious. A girl with no shame …that like you …gets naked for anyone that...

You destroyed my confidence. By being so Cold . I don’t think I want you. Because.. You really are bitter . you might be 6’2…but you are tiny . Your pettiness is evil . you are the most selfish ..self absorbed.. Self centered freak I ever met.

Do you realize.. You have hurt me..really bad ?

Im only 53 . Im still young enough to start over. My dull bf is 66. An old sack of s*** . good luck in life you cold dead fish . I dont need you. Im angry at you . You really are evil . igoring me.
I have...

I Dont feel pretty . oh I know I havent put effort into it . I just feel numb . invisible. Sad. Depressed . poor care of self . I stopped caring about me. Just quit . microchip has hurt me more than it helped me ..I like myself ....

Do you realize in 5 years , my boyfriend has never truly appreciate or paid me a sweet compliment. Never . his coldness and silence has kinda broken my will to heal . I think I deserve better . I deserve a man that can see me with his heart...

Join my club . its a lonely s*** fest . I hate being all alone in life . no kiDs. No husband . barely a boyfriend that won’t talk. Im sooo tired of being alone . not that I hate myself anymore . in all the abuse and break down...

You arrrre so beauty-ful to meee.

Pew f**

Val you Dumb skank I want horse’s

Get god in your life, he can heal u.

Gay p*** ? Is sick and twisted and evil .

Lolol

Wondering, when a mental disorder diagnosis will come into being , that can label crazy guys with gay p*** addiction . Its unnatural , to watch and then , touch your own c*** to a gay s***** relationships via videos .

How straight do you consider guys that watch and j******* to gay f** p***??? Just curious !

I agree. He’s a real c***. Go to Hell.

Hes got no clue about me!!

Repeatedly sadisticlly tortured . and raped . And he thinks Im not a Christian? If I didn’t know god..aka..Jesus ..there would be alot of dead people along the road .

Never ever use god to hurt anyone. They won’t forget or forgive !!

I didnt say or even think ..bad things . actually Hes kinda cute. But ..hes an idiot .

Im really quiet . I don’t like to draw attention to myself. I don’t think being quiet is a bad thing .

Hes meanie meanie !!! Yup you are!!!