trying to pursue love and intimacy is a losing fight for me.I just have to accept the sad and deeply deeply painful reality of being lonely forever.

It kills me I dont know you better by now. I hate myself for not having the courage to try harder.

I grew up in a toxic family where my dad always got drunk, smoked but he stopped smoking and drinking when I was a teenager argued and fought with my mom a lot which took a toil on me and my siblings, but mostly me I was openly suicidal tried...

Another night of painful longing. i need out of this life.

Just when I think things are getting better and we’ve reached that next level with eachother, it all comes crashing down.

You dont realize the pain you make me feel.

A turning point or a breaking point, I need one soon. i think forcing myself to the bottom is the only way to really move on.

both of my siblings are alcoholics. I am not close to my older sister as a result. but my twin brother? I can’t reach him and its killing me. he’s going to ruin his marriage and his life. there’s nothing I can do. Its killing my mom, too. she’s already...

People keep saying it will get better tomorrow. tomorrow is a new day. Itll get better next week. or month or year even. But it never is for me. It doesnt change. It doesnt get better. And wont.

I hate people because they failed me. I reached out my hands and they burned my fingers, gouged my eyes, cut my throat, and threw me right back into the lion’s den to be eaten alive. I could NEVER see myself loving or being close to another person any further...

The pain of unrequited love is worse than I ever though it could be.

You make me cry every week. But I cant stop myself from seeing you.

I wish I could be forgotten, as if I never existed
It would make leaving so much easier. I know I will hurt some people. Other will just be embarrassed that I did it. I know it’s selfish but I just want to leave, I’m hurting and I can’t...

Im so suicidal i wanna die so bad i think about it every time i make a mistake every time i piss someone off every time i disappoint myself every time i think about my life. I hate this world so much im so tired of being angry. I almost...

R.I.P. George Pell

There are very few days where I don’t wish I was dead, my existence up to this point has been mostly painful

Why do people shoot people who are breaking into cars? We all need more guns to protect our cars. Break into my car and I will see you get more than you bargained for.

Last year, I saved up a lot to give great gifts for my friends. Despite struggling and not having enough for my own needs, I wanted to celebrate our years of friendship and give them gifts that reminded me of them. I poured a lot of effort in choosing and...

My life has reached a harrowing standstill. I’ve found myself in an even middle ground of advancement and repentance, and still not accepting that the past is the past and I must move on. I’ve engrossed myself in a rabbit hole of a musical production, one that I know I...

sometimes I wish I wasn’t here my friends are b****** and also my teacher they treat me like s*** but I can’t leave them I have no one no one at all I can’t be alone I hate it everyone treats me like I’m a piece of trash once they...

i wasn’t your first kiss of the new year, but you were mine. i know you only offered to kiss me so i wouldn’t feel left out. i only accepted to keep you from thinking that there was any circumstance in which i didn’t want to kiss you.

in the...

I want him inside of me so badly I can’t take it

My next door neighbor is saving his trash for a rainy day. He is the poor man’s Howard Hughes. I think I will throw my trash over the fence. He will never notice.

Im so scared of writing mannn this is getting so olddd ive got so many missing assignments bro!! thing is, Ive been capable of writing an essay in under an hour for a few years now. ANd yET this comes to be… it was a simple lack of self restraint...

I hate being home, I wish my parents weren’t my real ones, I wish I had another place to go, far away from them. They drain me out, they judge every movement I do, they ignore my likes and dislikes. They invade my privacy. They even love my younger siblings...

if you’re an american and you leave your dog outside barking, i should have the right to shoot it and make you eat it

me and both are my parents are very depressed and we are all bipolar. its hell living together. a nightmare.

cant take the pain anymore. this year is not going to be any better.

I treated you like a best friend and you broke my heart.

I keep trying to control my girlfriend. She has a nasty indepedent streak and she fights me all the way. What happened to all the submissive women?

I’m not really supposed to tell anyone this bc it’s really difficult but one of my friends is dying. His organs are at risk for failure, and he had stopped breathing. The doctors don’t know why and they’ve been working on him non stop. I’ve known him since 6th grade,...

I may or may not be hopelessly crushing on my teammate aka one of my friends

I’m painfully in love

We’ve been married 10 years. I’m sorry 4 of those were me working to fix our finances and me losing myself in depression. Don’t divorce me. Re-evaluate. I know you’re tired, I know you feel done. But don’t permanently end our marriage on a temporary problem. I can fix this...

he’s giving me mixed signals, but in person, he completely likes being with me. wtfffff!

I wish I could tell her how I really felt. I’m in some pretty complicated circumstances and telling her would ruin things more than they would fix things. But I am having such a hard time finding closure and I can’t get over her because I see her so often....

I wish I’d done better in trying to kill myself. I feel like all of my attempts to get better end up with me reverting back to where I was and being miserable again. Just a few more units of insulin and I would have been gone, no more pain....

I have never understood it. Did not understand it at 15 when I woke to her saying my name and opened my eyes to see her standing naked by my bed. I told her i did not understand when she slipped into my bed and fondled me erect. She told...

The loneliness hurts deep. Its getting impossible to cope.

I want help but am too scared of how I will change or what I will be told, at this point I just feel hopeless and as if death is the only solution to feel free.