Me and my sister share a 10 year gap. She was born on Halloween of 2001. I was born July 1st, 2011. (Currently 14, sister soon 24 both females) I was 5 when it happened. It was insane at first, I refused to believe it. My sister made me feel like it was normal. But I’ve learned it isn’t and I should seek help. But I feel like no one will believe it, so here I am, confessing on this stupid website. It was during Spring of 2016, before our dad renovated the house so it was smaller. My brother lived in the attic, our parents in a one bedroom, and me and sister together, even though she had her own room which she refused to use. I was about to sleep, until I felt something rubbing at my crotch, her foot. I look towards her, her already looking at me with her hand over her mouth as she gestured for me to be quiet. I sobbed quietly, unable to hold back tears as she slowly pulled my pants down. When my parents would step into the room, she would quickly pull me into her arms and under her so it looked like we fell asleep cuddling. Once they left, she’d continue. It continued for a few years, until she matured at 19 (2020) and realized it was wrong. Years after, she still has not apologized. No one knows of it but us. After all those years, I wonder why I still await my rightfully earned apology. I am 14 writing this. It pains me to write this, but I know I must. Even if no one knows who I am. -K