i was not needed at work today so i am at my neighbors house having s**. i have been taking care of her lawn housework and shopping for the past few years since her husband passed away a few years ago. not sure if it is the scare in the world going on but i caught her m*********** after i was getting her yard ready for summer a couple weeks ago. nothing was ever s***** with us ever not even a hint. but that day to ease her embarrassement i took my clothes off then i masturbated beside her on a couch. she is 25yrs old my senior i am married in my 40s and even have a bf f*** buddy i see sometimes but i do care for her alot. she has been lonely and have two sons my age that never come by. well that week my wife got called into work very early in the morning after midnight. i got up after that to take out the trash. i noticed my neighbors lights on. so i went in my hoouse to think about this. did i cross a line the other day? is s** a possibility? well i knocked on her door she was up in a bathrobe drinking coffee. some small talk then we were silent. i took my clothes off and layed on her couch fully erect. she got on top of me and i had unprotected s** with her and she had her eyes closed the entire time. i seen she was n*** under the bathrobe but never took it off. i felt guilty at first but then no she seemed so calm and relaxed while having s** with me. since then today makes the 4th time. saturday we had s** on her bed and she removed the towel she had on. and i must say for her age not bad. but i know i am cheating on my wife but i think i am easing my neighbor by having s**. she remains kind of shy but has opened up to me more. we just had s** missionary and i kissed her. i am laying here n*** next to her while she is sleeping. this is wrong i know but i really believe i am helping her get through this.