I had a pretty hot affair with my first cousin, Tanya. Her mother and my father are brother and sister. It started off pretty innocently when I was 15 (17 years ago). She was visiting me from California- where she lived. We went to the local mall and were doing some shopping. She had her arm around me- and we were holding hands. I just thought she was being friendly. I bought a watch- and needed to set the time. As we were doing this, we were linking arms. It felt very sweet.

We had this ritual of giving each other a hug for 30-45 seconds every night before she went to bed, while she was staying with us. One such night, we were hugging each other. Her breasts against my chest felt amazing. Suddenly, she moved back from the hug, and our lips were inches apart. She is very attractive- so I was excited to see what would happen. Suddenly, she leaned in and kissed me. In the moment- I kissed her back. Though I knew this was wrong, I enjoyed it. The next day, she came into my room and closed the door. I thought she was going to say, “What we did yesterday night was wrong.” But, to my surprise, she held my hand and started kissing me. Again, I returned the kisses passionately.

Throughout her stay at our house in NJ, Tanya and I found ways to be alone and kiss each other- even though we were both fully aware that our affair was incestuous and wrong. I think the fact that we had to hide our taboo affair made it more fun and slightly more interesting.

Then, Tanya went back to California- but I was not ready for our affair to end. Thankfully, it didn’t. She came back the next year. We were sitting in the back seat of our car- and I wrote in our native language that I enjoyed kissing her and wanted to do it again. She took the paper I wrote it on, read what I had written, looked at me- smiled- and crumpled up the paper.

The next day, while our parents were all busy- we went downstairs to the basement. The s***** tension built- and we started kissing. I was feeling a bit brave during this kiss. So, I moved my hand towards her chest- and started squeezing her breast. She was a bit startled at this- but soon, seemed okay with it. Then, I grabbed her a**- and moved her hands, such that it was grabbing my a**. We both pulled on each others asses- it felt great. We kissed a couple of more times during that trip too- while hiding our affair of course.

Then, Tanya went back to CA- but returned a few months later- while I was a senior in High School. I was in the mall with my parents. We were buying gifts for my teachers that wrote recommendation letters. Once we had done that- my parents left the mall. As soon as they were out of sight- Tanya got very touchy with me- which I enjoyed. While we were together- I told her that I wanted to kiss her again, even if it was just for one second. She told me she didn’t want to kiss me for just one second. She wanted to kiss me for longer. Needless to say, I was happy to hear that. As we were driving home from the mall, I told her that I wanted that kiss anyway. We pulled over before we reached home and she kissed me. It was soft and sweet. Then, we reached home and had to act normal in front of my parents. After we had dinner- I offered to driver Tanya home.

As we were nearing my uncle’s house (where she was staying)- I said that I wanted to kiss her again. Once again, we pulled over to a side street, and kissed each other very passionately.

Tanya came back to NJ the next year. Our affair was still continuing in full force. We went to do some shopping. We were holding hands the entire time we were together- and I loved that feeling. My parents were away on business- so just my house keeper was at home. I knew that both wanted to make love to each other. I asked her how she wanted to go about that. She suggested that we go to my house. I LOVED that idea.

We went home- and headed to my basement. I put in a video on our home theater- so the house keeper would think we were just watching a movie. After about 30 seconds of watching the movie- we started kissing very passionately. I asked her if I could s*** her breasts. She thought for a moment- and said, “OK”. I unhooked her bra- and started kissing, sucking and fondling her breasts. She seemed to really enjoy that. I also took my shirt off- and kissed her while t******. That felt great. We made love for about 30-40 minutes- until I realized that I had to take her home.

She came over a few days afterwards- when we were completely alone. My parents were on vacation. She played ‘hard to get’ initially- and seemed to just want to watch a movie. Thankfully, after 1-2 minutes, even she couldn’t resist and started kissing me passionately. We did most of the same stuff that we did before. When we were t****** and kissing- I started French kissing her, with a LOT of tongue. Then, We then moved to a bedroom in the bedroom. She flashed me and we made love. I asked her, “Is there anything I can do for you (s******* or otherwise)?” She responded by saying, “I would like to have an o*****.” I said to her, “Say no more.” I positioned myself with my d*** against her p****- and started grinding very passionately. After a few minutes- she came. Thankfully, she was able to continue- until I came. After I came, we both collapsed onto the bed. We were a bit sweaty and hot- which I found to be a total turn on. After we collapsed onto the bed- we hugged and kissed each other a lot. We were both wearing pants- which I’m glad about- otherwise, we would have practically been having s** in that bed.

Tanya came back next year. We were having lunch together- and I kept bringing up our affair- hoping she’d be down for one more kiss. She seemed unwilling. I claimed that I needed closure. Although- in reality- I just wanted to kiss her again. She kept saying no. We went to my house- and packed my bags for an upcoming trip to England that I was taking in the next two days.Then, Tanya looked at me and said, “Okay- I will kiss you one more time.” I guess she also enjoyed the kisses more than she let on. Needless to say, I was very happy to hear this.

We went into my room- but soon realized that it was full of clothes and my suitcase- and there wasn’t enough room to mess around in there. We then went to our guest room and I closed the door. The anticipation was rising. I walked towards Tanya and we started kissing very passionately. We both shed our tops and she shed her bra. We then both took off our pants- but kept our underwear on- although I would have loved to be naked with Tanya. We were kissing and hugging passionately. Then, at one point- Tanya stopped and said, “Scott, this is wrong.” I was sad to hear that, but I knew she was right. I asked her if she wanted to hug it out- and she said okay. I then grabbed her and kissed her (while both of us were still t******). The feeling of her breasts against my chest was AMAZING. This kiss went on for 1-2 minutes. I think Tanya had forgotten what she said during those 2 minutes- which I was okay with.

After our last make out session- we put our clothes back on- and went to my car. We were breathing heavily and were wiping saliva off of our mouths. I honestly can’t believe what experience I had with Tanya. I can’t believe that she also allowed this to happen.

Since then- Tanya got married in 2008 and I got married in 2018. I now only see Tanya as my cousin- and only love my wife. But, I enjoyed our time together tremendously.

Furthermore, I’m glad I was able to share my story and get it off my chest.

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