You pulling back through way you have is just the proof I needed that no one will ever truly want me forever. Even you, can just walk away without caring.

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You pulling back through way you have is just the proof I needed that no one will ever truly want me forever.
Even you, can just walk away without caring.
Even you can just be happy without even knowing how I am.
Even you.
If you want to know how I am. I’ll put it here…
I’m lonely, I feel useless, I feel like thrown away garbage, I feel like the biggest idiot in the world for thinking you ever actually cared, I feel heartbroken, I feel guilty, I feel like I missed out on my real life fairy tale because you were always supposed to be my prince but as it turns out I’m not a princess so a prince would never want me.
I feel simply dumb.
I know that the next time you make time for me I’ll be there waiting just like the f****** idiot i am.
You’ll give me that little glimpse of hope just to jerk it back away with silence and distance.

New Confession

It’s been a while since I’ve been here with you guys, I’ve kinda missed ya. Things are advancing at the abandoned warehouse. I’m a little more comfortable in shorts and a tank top while addressing the kids with their requests. It’s becoming somewhat familiar for me getting to know them. Makes my other job a lot easier knowing they know it’s a performance. And I’m much more comfortable being naked around them when I must be. The cross slab isn’t something you get used to it’s something you learn to tolerate as part of the duty routine. The naughty boys pair are still naughty with a partial understanding about feelings and disrupting a good thing with a lousy attitude. I’ve learned how to communicate with them and get my point across as how I’m feeling during certain stages of my duties. One is to be their guidance counselor and school advisor. Plus self respect and responsibilities. We’re both learning and growing. The bully joss has dropped a few levels of meanness as he’s getting to know me on the daily basis. I believe I’ve earned his respect. He’ll ask me every now and again if he overdid something here or there. I’ll tell him he’s been cordial and I appreciate that we can both play out our fantasies daily with our present arrangement and thus we can all make each day pleasant for one another as we go. The feelings of shame and humiliation are played out as a role play but it’s come to the point where it a comfortable play that we all enjoy and he can afford to pay for.

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I got a o hone from a friend that i grew up with and he was one of the boys that I had s** with . He asked me if i remember going down to the wood taking off our clothes and taking turns with one another. A lot of kissing touching and had penetration every now and then. I did f*** him more than did me. He told me he found out that I was driving my mother back there and would I like to come over to his place. I said sure. Then tells me that the family goes to this church were they relive there life over again in front of there spouse. He wanted to know if I would help him out with having s** with him in front of his wife. I told him yes I would like to. So when I dropped off my mother I went over to there house and had dinner with his wife and kid. We got done eating and went into the den were they had it set up for his family to watch us. Right after I got done f****** him his wife and I went into there bedroom and had s**. She had me c** inside her and she thanked me for doing this for his family. We got up and went back in the den. He asked me if i came inside her and i said yes. We sat around naked and even the kids were naked. One of his daughters asked me to finger her as we were just sitting there. I got her to c** right in front of all of them.