To two friends I lied to years ago –

I lied when I said the reason I cut off contact my best friend from grade school was because she was talking poorly about me. I’m sorry.

I’d been excluded from group gatherings, was being treated weirdly by mutual people we knew, and she unfriended me on Snapchat. I was spiraling at the time as a college sophomore for that and other reasons, so I stopped talking to her because I didn’t know how to actually talk about what was wrong and what I was feeling.

Apparently when I was drunk at a party I went on a rant about it and have since tried to clear that up with the person I ranted to. I haven’t told you both any of this directly because I’m getting the exact same gossip vibes from the you both, including nasty gossip that my ex boyfriend has spread about me to anyone who will listen, and I’m tired. I genuinely don’t have the physical or mental strength to deal with talking about all of this directly right now, and I’m tired of playing a guessing game about who is talking bad about me behind me back, so I’m putting it off until I can breathe again enough to talk about it.

I’m sorry I lied to you both and in a warped but genuine way I hope God reveals the truth so that it’s out there.