I have been thinking I may be bi in some way. I’m not attracted to other guys but thinking back to the 1970s I think I had a gay friend named Pete.

He was about to graduate from high school and always came to spend summers with his grandparents 2 houses down the street. I’m 3 years younger and didn’t have any clue at the time really about gay people.

As boys do things together outdoors there were many times we urinated outside sometimes or went swimming n*** or changing clothes in front of each other.

Looking back in later years I saw him naked or exposed many times. He asked one day how often I took care of myself and I was slightly taken off guard and admitted that I did almost every day. He asked if I wanted to with him and said maybe some other time. He wanted me to watch which I did reluctantly probably twice.

He mentioned that he and a friend back home did things with each other and really wanted me to do it. He finally got me to let him start feeling me and I got hard instantly and all of a sudden was in his mouth while he continued. I reciprocated rubbing him and pulled his out jerking it.

To this day I wish I sucked him but didn’t. I would have been completely comfortable with him but doubt any friends after that would have. I never mentioned this to anyone and lost contact with PJ after he graduated and his grandparents passed away.