I’m done fighting. There’s nothing worth fighting for so there’s no point. I appreciate the advice that’s already been tried a million times, but I’ve already f****** tried it. Writing down every horrible thing and not being able to actually express it to someone that cares doesn’t help. Nobody cares about me they just care that I’m alive to experience more suffering. There’s nothing good, there’s no bright side, and horrible situations have never made anybody better in any way. People just f****** lie to themselves instead of accepting that failure is just failure. It’s not a lesson, nothing good comes from it, it’s just simply failure and the only thing failure does is slow down actual progress.