I have a feeling that one day I’m going to end up killing myself. Ever since I can remember I have always felt a deep sadness that just won’t go away. It hides, and sometimes I think it’s gone for a while, but deep down I know it’s always with me. I feel like a deep lonely emptiness that makes me want to run away to nowhere specific. I’m scared that in the future it will get to the point where the feeling won’t go away. I just have a feeling deep down that there’s a probability I’m going to kill myself in some years. I’ve never told anyone and writing this makes me sick to my stomach.