Ew. I don’t think anyone would want to get close enough to you to be of any help you, you sicko. Not before you at least wash your hands but even then, I’d sooner put a bullet directing into your brain.

If you are looking for mental help, I suggest you head on down to your local emergency room, tell the lady at the counter your brain is broken and you are into gay Asian midgets and I guarantee they are fully qualified to help you. You will not find help on this site.