My train of thought when deciding to leave:

You’re awesome!!! Far too awesome for me. I will go. Let go. You will live your life. Find someone far better than I. You’ll be happy and loved, even if it’s not with me. If you don’t find someone, we’ll find each other again.

Thing is, I never truly let go. I’ve held you in my heart this whole time. Convincing myself that we WILL end up together. If you’ve wondered why there was no goodbye that’s the real reason why. I, to this day can’t bring myself to say it! I refuse. In my mind it’s too permanent. Selfish I know, but how I feel.