you know precisely, Stefan, how you deceived me. I dont have to tell you. Right? also, choosing my birthday? wow. why not just wave a big red flag you´re a narcissist.  , it´s really screaming “I told her to do that today because I have a toxic personality and I only feel good when I treat someone like crap, cause it makes me feel like I am in control when I cannot control myself.”. it just proves your own worth and I´m glad you finally revealed it.  Im grateful to realise what is dead weight in my life and a useless burden, and who are the people worth my love and affection. clarity. something that was never there ever since I first met you.    always confused, uncertain, scared what you might do next. it is a wonderful thing to have clarity. Thank you for this. 
but I know you…I have this really eerie feeling. there is never a person you do not end up destroying. thats like a default setting for you. and if that should happen, I am on her side, not yours. just know that. and I would testify for anybody whose heart you end up breaking. haven´t we been there before? with others? and where are they…thrown away like rags. I hope all goes well for the sake of everyone else you fooled over the years, but I dont have too much faith in that.  
 Im going to apologize to myself for trusting and supporting you. I couldnt have known, and im not to blame. just dont want to think I somehow helped you hurt and lie to people, cause that would really be awful. if you do anything bad, then  it is also a stain on my conscience.