I have no emotions for the Children I have created. Never in life did I want to be a father and I let this be known to their mother beforehand and tried to discuss other options such as adoption but that was not in the cards. While at first I tried while they were babies once the child support hit (because we were not married) all I felt was resentment. I did not want this and it was being forced upon me, suddenly it felt like I was being punished for doing the right thing and I walked out of their lives. Years later I tried to be a part of their world again while one daughter tried to form a bond with me she said she just sees me as another friend and not her father (fair) and my other daughter wanted nothing to do with me. I have asked the mother if her husband would consider adopting the girls because he is so much more to them than I will ever be. That was a no because the 1200/mos in child support – supports her stay at home mom lifestyle. I count the days that support ends…Its not to far from now. I feel the child support made me more distant and cold than I ever would have been and I hate this person and those feelings but that is the truth.