I’ve tried to kill myself without wanting to die. There wasn’t any drive. I just did it. Ate a whole foil of pills, overdosed on my medication, ate plastic probably infested with some sort of germ.
And nothing happened. I didn’t die. Didn’t even get sick. I want to try again, sometimes.
Instead of knocking some sense into myself, I just get disheartened by the fact that I know nothing will come it.
I’ve tried for so long, and nobody seems to care.
I wonder if I really can die?
