remember that god will accept you no matter how far away you are from him, you just have to show some humility and ask him forgiveness. repent before the day of judgement, live righteously, live better not only for yourself but for the people around you. you will NOT be happy living the way you are now, in s***** depravity, in violence, in hate and greed and anger. once Jesus comes back, there is no second chance. the door is closed and you will be outside.