I’m sorry, i didnt mean to hurt you for that. It had nothing to do with you. Only that last time i felt kind of sad and frustrated, but also felt like i needed to give you the space and
myself the space to process it so i dont lash out. Also I just kind of disappear sometimes. Or because i get distracted and dont have the time. I have a hard time with self-control. It also comes back to boundaries again, i can only set really firm boundaries or i let things happen to me that cross the line several times.

I really dont realize this affects you in this way when i do that. I guess i dont see myself as important to you, or to anyone for that matter. Maybe i should have announced when i left and what i was leaving for. But that always feels so attention seeking.