I’ve been pretending to be okay…. && Work life really is improving but personally I’m not okay at all.

Personally this is still not what I want. The person I want more than anything has pushed me aside like I’m nothing. The short responses, the blank pictures, the acting completely different with no explanation is killing me. I want to give him space to follow his heart and do what he feels right but I guess in doing that I have to learn to live with knowing I may never be fully okay.

Loving him hurts so bad. 😭💔