I’ve been trying to conserve our relationship for so long. An endless battle and you always falter and never want to fight. You constantly blame me for the source of our problems and say your life would be better off without me. Now that we’re parents this has just gotten so much worse. And when I have the balls to demand respect you become aggressive. You lunge at me though never hit me as though to excuse yourself because you never actually did it. But your intention is clear. Your hate is showing despite the lies of you telling me you love me. Any disagreement or any truth you don’t want to hear and that’s it for you. I can’t believe I’ve been fighting to be with someone like you. You quickly demean me with your tone tell me to shut up. You don’t love me how I should be loved. I deserve more. I’m sitting near shocked that you feel you have the RIGHT to walk up to me when I call you out on how you treat me. This is ridiculous to me. Any high stakes of
R stressful situation and you lose your cool. I’m over it too. Because I’m not your punching bag. That felt like the last straw. Wtf am I fighting for.
For what

You’re ready to lunge at me when I defend myself
When you don’t like what I say
You come towards me physically

Who do you think you are
That you have the audacity try to make me small and hide behind your “jokes” or sarcasm when the truth lies inside.

You believe yourself better than me and assert that you deserve more

And now unfortunately I feel stuck with you

You’re the father of my child and I have to share my soul with you

I wish in the depths of my heart that you would somehow change but you’ve shown me who you are

I can’t go backwards

What I’m supposed to be scared of you? Scared of standing up for myself?

I never imagined I’d be married and divorced in just a year. And have a child as well at this point.

I feel less than right now. And I feel like I have no one to turn to right now.

But I have to be an adult and process this quickly and move forward

I don’t feel I have time to plan

The most important thing is to make sure that I’m a good parent

That I can provide for my child

That I can do everything in my power to make sure he has a good life.

So I’m going to start changing my resume and seeking higher paying jobs.

I’m not doing this anymore.

I can’t

You threaten to kick me out

WTF kind of LOVE is that.