I am so angry at ex wife and blaming myself as well. Apparently she got my s** coach’s phone number from my phome while i was asleep. Tried texting him to ask him to fk her again. I get thslat as a married man he is responsible for the risks he takes but the situation of him pimping my time on my knees for a discreet group of other older marrier men in the neighborhood was being handled very safely and i had not gotren him and my ez wife involved for her fantasies this woild not have happened. He called me….which he has never done before…controllee and clipped but understandably very angry…and told me that he is suspending all pimping of my mouth to the men dor further notice for everyome’s privacy and that he will be coming over this afternoon to discuss what he assured me would be very harsh consequences for me and he expects me to handle consequences for my ex wife. I am not deeply afraid of facing him i am grateful i suppose that he has no wish to see or deal with my ex and that he apparently trusts me to address what she has done. I bear the guilt of blame because i should have never allowed my ex to convince me to blend my cocksucking with her fantasies. Despite my blame in this mess i am so pissed at her and getting my head wrapped around the concept that i am very likely facing a celibate future because he has xut me off from thst outlet and i cannot imagine continuing the long term FWB epiisodes with my ex.