i am more at a recovery stage then a rant stage. It’s not even that serious but I am just shocked at how my views are changing now. I used to have this mindset you must be amazing at one thing and another person can be amazing at another thing but not what you’re good at. And that grew into me becoming a narscissit and wanting to be better then everyone at everything. My friend said “I’m going to start writing.” When i got home that day, I tried multiple times to write good stories, even though I don’t like to write, just to make myself feel valid. But I really don’t need to do that. I am special and talented just the way I am I can learn stuff if I want but I shouldn’t be upset when others do that too. I know a few people who have similar problems and just watching it happen now is making me feel silly. A few weeks ago my friend mentioned how she tripped in dance class and my other friend was like ‘ha what you dance?’ Recently she has said she wants to take up dance classes. My other friend said she also was gonna start dancing and that friend was just like bruh rlly. So now I see through her no shade to her but i can tell but now I see how i was and i don’t wanna be that person
Cuz really deep down narscissits just dont feel comfortable in themselves and feel pressure to one up everybody. but i am fine jsut the way I am not being exceptional in every single thing. I laugh thinking about it now. I used to remember “Oh only I should be good at singing, all my other friends should s*** at singing.’ Not me gatekeeping singing…. Anyway I’m truly glad I am over this now. I will try my best going forward to accept whoever does what whenever and truly from the bottom of my heart feel proud and happy. And i will grow on my own deciding what I like and want to try, not based off just being better then someone else. And to my narcissistic friends, maybe you’ll find this or maybe not. Hopefully you can change like I strive to and have a positive mindset. Bc being a narscisst made me a bothersome little fellow and I’m still a little fellow, but my own type!
