White male here in his 50s. Divorced, grown boys. Almost certain I am gay. I crossdress and love giving black men oral s**. Do I come out of the closet? Do I start dating? We gay men are such c*** whores, relationships are hard. If I find a man I like and start dating, I will almost certainly have to tell a few people. How do I start dating men? What do I find makes a hot guy. It is so funny to talk about hot guys, never thought I’d be saying that. But now I am thinking about hot guys. Paying attention to those shirtless shorts wearing dudes on Rupaul now. Never paid attention before. Now I am like damn! I expect to get used to making out with guys and even being a bottom. Do I have to practice with dildos? Should I get gay magazines and see what my new group talks about? Which one? Out? The Advocate? I am definitely queen and LGBTQ I know that. I couldn’t stop giving BJs if I tried.