It s****. I know. I waited and focused on me because I needed to. I turned my back on too many people who mattered a lot to me because I didn’t like where I was, I was ashamed of where I was at the time. I am bought they could do better, no tutu joint that AT THE TIME, they couldn’t do better. It felt half like I was sparing them. I didn’t stop to think that they first of all didn’t care because they loved me as I did them, and secondly I could have used them as motivation and influence for change to get me in a place I felt was good. Inspiration on top of having something real to be with at the time because I did need it then. I had people, but they were not real. It wasn’t selfish on my part, it might have seemed that way, it was more about me not feeling good enough.

What can I do? I’ll do it. I’ll find a way to do it.

PS I “ain’t” (duh????) said it was you specifically, but now I think it was.