Today marks the 1 year mark of making the worst decision of my life. I’m honestly surprised I made it this far. It got dark and lonely. I’m so sorry for the things I’ve said. I wish I could show you. You say your not mad but I know deep down inside you are. I wish you would let me earn the chance to tell you this in person and more and actually have you listen. I know you had your things going on and had to do what you had to do but damn it hurts. I know every other guy has lied and told you what you want to hear to make you happy. The difference is when I make a mistake and realize it like I did with this one not only would I tell you what would make you happy. I’d actually do it and show I’m sorry and different. I hope things got better after we stopped talking. I wonder how you are doing every morning when I wake up. I miss not getting to find out and know. I can’t even begin to tell you the difference you made in my life. I looked forward to waking up for once. It was amazing. Now a year later I have nothing. I know the chances of you seeing this and knowing it’s for you are .00001% but on the off chance you do, please let me make this right. You won’t regret it one bit I promise with everything I have I will earn back every ounce of trust and respect I had plus so much more. I don’t care what I have to do to earn it back. Consider it done. Let me fix this please I’m begging you to at least listen.