I have a lot of spare time but I still try to fill it with study or something I used to like the gym a lot, better when I had a cute personal trainer as well. but he used to come on to me and then back off and it felt weird. its been non stop the same s*** most of my life. and I don’t know why. people think you should be happy without any love or s***** fulfilment and without normal proper sensible wedding and baby like you are asking too much , like its a dam diamond mine. Its a mine full of diamonds and emeralds and whatever in the quarry between our two old farms. yeh. I expect too much of any one. just to get a bit of respect or a career etc. why am I being persecuted for something I have no idea over?

do you think its nice for me having to wake my mother up at 2am cuz the cat scratched my face and that was donnas fault over the road with her spraying tiger piss everywhere to scar my cats. so her fat girls could get men over me when I looked hotter then them all.

do you think its nice having anxieties of all kinds? can’t eat meat incase its human or cat.
seeing mold turn into a demonic form at night creepying around looking at you. dreaming of tall man attacking me in the cupboard. nightmares of epstein and saville abusing me when they died. dreams of the pedos coffin falling on me in bed.

sure, its great having this poverty and illnesses and junk everywhere. from the junk dynasty from courage the cowardly dog curse cartoon ! sure.