I knew just wanted to slip out when I saw an opportunity, which I did when everyone scattered looking for a path of their own, and look for my own path, which wasn’t always easy. And I did. Unfortunately at the exact same time that I did I also met a snake of a woman who dragged everything I wanted to slip away from right back to me and it got ugly. Although I didn’t even realize it fully at the time.

My brain works in weird ways. I don’t sit there and think about things and everything comes together. My brain actually puts it all together over a period of time and gives it to me in a big picture. So I know it because I see it. Certain things… I know one person, who I did call a friend at one time, a good friend, I believe he genuinely did care at one time, I know he wasn’t the most honorable guy when it came to quite a few things in life. And he gravitated towards a few people we knew mutually who were snakes. Bluntly, they were snakes. I have a feeling that since we last spoke, along with one of those sketchy characters I never considered a friend, not my style. I have a feeling he’s taken some paths that I never did. Dishonest paths. Maybe dishonest is wrong, I’ll say not so honorable. Based on how I was contacted out of the blue in around 2001. Right out of thin air. Which indicated a few things to me. As opposed to me, I stayed away from that sketchy s***, and tried to remain on an honest path.

You know what I mean?

But that’s what I mean by “only gotten worse”. I would have thought I would have been at least worthy of a certain level of respect. As a friend. Even as I walked away. At least as I was walking there was a certain level of respect out of me. Like I said I always wanted to avoid making things ugly, nasty, whatever. I just wanted slip out and move on. Better myself in some way. Honestly.

I guess we allowed someone or a few people, particularly a woman, help make it really ugly. The difference between us is I didn’t even know. You did.