I think my brother hates me. We grew up boys in the same room and girls in the other. I was 10 and started asking s***** questions openly. My parents divorced when I was young and my dad was openly a naturalist nudist. Our mom sent us to his house when he was out of jail and we’d all spend the days at his house naked whether in the house or outside playing in water or mud. We kept it from mom but the boys liked being naked so we stayed naked in our room. We had a bunk bed and a third bed against ours where we all slept. We’d hang out and game naked and if our mom was working late then our older brother (16) would walk around the house naked so we did. One day we were watching a movie and my brothers and me were laying on the bottom bunk (my bed) and we were naked and literally packed side by side. A s** scene came on and our older brother got a b**** and we asked him about it like what did it feel like and stuff. He told us we could feel it and see for ourselves and we did. I remember studying his b**** and getting to know his d*** really well. And eventually we began jerking off together and then that turned into jerking each other off and that turned into him eating me out and f****** me. One day we were home from school and our mom worked late so we stripped and laid down watching tv and eating. My older brother said he was going to the room and my little brother and me knew he was going to j******* so we joined him. We were messing around when our neighbor came to check on us since our mom called her and she said she didn’t see us make it home. She walked in and my older brother was f****** me and my younger brother was jerking my d*** while I was jerking his. She freaked out and ran out of the house. Our mom got home and asked us all three to come to the living room and she asked what the neighbor caught us doing. We fessed up and told her we were playing around like we saw them do in movies and she asked us how long that had been going on because I was getting full on fucked by my older brother who was years older than me. She said she was disgusted and didn’t wanna look at us for a while and we kept doing our thing in private. Our mom never brought it back up again but knew what we were doing and one day she told us we needed to keep it a secret from EVERYONE. So we did. And when my big brother left for college he came back different. He didn’t really look at me at all or my little brother. And he’s the one that got us into it all. Idk if he hates us now or what