those york girls don’t understand what it is like to never have a love of your own, being fat people hating you. losing weight in your prime in your 30s being thin and pretty and doing a degree and working and even then still no one likes you and longing for romance and s***** love and not being able to find it and being rejected everywhere you go and not knowing why. Some people just don’t get over that defeat and failure of being thin and pretty for once but still not being good enough for a beautiful young man your own age to ask you out and give you all you need. They seem to think everyone wants their father and they don’t. I don’t. I never got to have a great teen life with boys. I never got to party in my 20s much. I didn’t have money. My wages were pathetic for the responsibility I had. No one ever gave me the time of day. My needs have never been met. People never want to see life from my point of view. I feel murdered since a child. I was told I don’t exist by someone over 20 years ago. I felt someone wanted me dead from the age of 4. over a stupid soft drink company that never paid my bills or cared about me. I never had a graduation or a proper normal party of friends that care about me and only me. I have never had a man care about me and only me. YOU have. I haven’t. I have never been married and never had a child. You don’t know what that feels like.