I am a 13 year old girl and I don’t want to live anymore; I feel like everyone hates me, I’m never anyone first choice and the girl I thought I might end up best friends with introduced me to her best friend recently, I always feel judged, I’m sad and empty and angry and jelous all the time and I just want it to stop. I have austism and ADHD and I can’t figure out how to make friends and make people like me. I’m not even smart, I read all the time and try to pay attention but nothing makes any sense and I hate feeling stupid all the time. I won’t kill myself because I’m not going to put my family through that it would break my parents and then they wouldn’t look after my brother and I want to him to be happy. I don’t know what to do or how to ask for help and I just miss being happy and I hate that I keep breaking down every week, I’m tired of sobbing. I hate nearly everyone for not noticing that I’m not okay and I just want advice. Thank you.