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To whom who I Wish the best of life,

I really wanted to clear this up since I dont want to “hurt” you much longer; if its really true I couldnt really ignore that and I think you know that. (I was only gathering enough proof that this is real because as a psych major were train to be skeptic about things first, I havent got any definitive proof but Ill shoot my shot nlng, its better than actually knowing Im hurting you w/o realizing it).

It’s not in my genuine intentions really to hurt u, I am not truly aware that I did ( and if I did things that hurt you, pls know that its my defense mechanism because I was hurt too). If so Im really2 and truly sorry. I am not exactly sure who you are but if I am correct, I wanted you to know that I do have feelings for you, forgot about it and resurfaced again (I am working on it myself and know that Im very diplomatic about it, dont worry Im not a psych major for no reason, its not something i dont know how to properly hsndle), however, we both know that we couldnt pursue this and I wouldnt want to start any fire by messaging you or entertaining this which would eventually lead to crossing the boundary. Thats a very dangerous line. You have a girlfriend and Im very aware of that. It would be very unfair for her and you and my very conscience cant carry that. I dont want to be a homewrecker and never have wanted to be. I cant mess with someone else relationship and no Matter how assertive I am sometimes, We both know that’s not who I am.

And if I did something that triggers this, I apologize. There’s no one to blame here and Im not mad. Not even a bit, I promise. I know people can sometimes be so fragile ( we deal with humans afterall) I truly did care for you but we know nmn how its not good dbh. That’s not a good baseline. We are all better than this so let us be, okayy? Please? Here’s a tip because typically Im the therapist friend, ” ask yourself what needs BOTH of you are not meeting and discuss it with your girlfriend”. In realtionships kas dapat merong compromise na magaganap okay? Dapat both of you are happy ganern. Its bidirectional.

I would like to pour Everything in this post before I actually disappear for a while so as to hope fully explain my side. Sometimes my stories arent a Communication table and I just playfully posting things with regards to what Im feeling in the moment and sometimes its not even bout yah so its very random.I get embarrassed. Angry. Sad. Happy but its not always bout yah. Yes I always have been honest when I speak about my feelings unless Im forced publicly. No I dont post too much in here, I only do when I feel some cognitive dissonance and some post are so twisted omg lol, most cheesy messages are not even me so be carefull. Dont worry told no one about this of course except my bestfriend and yknow shes fine. Yes, I do still very much wanted to be your friend (dsuh) . am I calm and collected about this and could sustain a conversation as if this never happened? Yes of course dont worry iss me :)) We’ll be fine and I just know I have always trust you as being a good person. We all are :)) (dont worry too much of my 23 personalities lol they can be confusing). No im not pretending when I complain about being not okay (thats part of life but ykno we get through it). I appreciated you opening about your feelings and that’s a brave thing to do.Im proud of you. Im actually a hugger when offering comfort so here *hugs with consent and no malice* lol, you’ll be fine. please let’s all be all okay. Mmkay?

If this resonates with you, you know who you are and know that you’re not wrong. I hope this answers all your questions. I know this is very long and you might not have the energy to read this at all. But if you do thank you. Here’s another tip, emotions are fleeting that means if you anchor yourself with its gratification then know its not a good and youll be confuse everytime. Know the person and I mean really know them and youll be good. And much better, know yourself first:). Bye2 for now because I wont be posting for a very long while. Again, you’ll be okay na ha, im tolerant with this things so dont worry too much :))

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