I love my wife, we are having a baby, but our s** life peaked out around december 2019, 2020 was a wasteland of vanilla boring maybe once every six months, 2021 was a veritable no man’s land where i basically gave up the plot, she even booked a trip to las vegas for us which conveniently occurred when we got her period so we did it like one time while we there, again no effort boring a** pump and dump. 2022 she decided it was time to step her game up lol, we had s** one time and now she’s pregnant (what she was really after of course). She keeps saying she wants to do it more, but she makes no effort, sits around all day in sweatpants and a hoodie complaining about how unattractive she is, but refuses to do anything to make herself feel better. I’ll admit too it’s just not exciting or interesting for me anymore with her, she has killed it over the past 2 years, intentionally of course, and I don’t even get turned on thinking about her anymore. I basically have to not m********* for over a week just to get hard for her. I don’t want to cheat, have no intentions of doing so, I will stay in this marriage and raise our child with her, be the best husband and father I can be, though I know there is nothing in this for me anymore. Once the kid grows up and is on their own I will probably just kill myself be done with all of this. Life in general even prior to this has just been one gigantic disappointment after another, nothing ever worked out for me the way it was supposed to, this relationship was great for almost ten long years, peaked out within 6 months of being married, and now we are on the downhill slide obviously. Kid is the last ditch effort, time flies quick though so I know it’ll be over before I realize and then I can finally exit this ridiculous joke that the world put on me from my birth, and has used to keep me down my entire life.