It doesn’t really matter what you think or how many people care about this person, all that really matters is what they want.

If they don’t want anything to do with it, why are you sweating it?

You sound like a clingy needy little c***? It sounds to me like it’s much more important to you than them. Be wise it probably is.

So leave them alone. You can’t think of a single reason why they outcast you? I bet it’s legit a d with good reason. What you think doesn’t mean anything. It doesn’t sound like they want you around, but it’s obvious you want them around. For some reason.