No it’s not like that. You are like a couple people I loved, family and lovers, that I can’t be with now. But you are better because you have a considerate softness, gentleness that I’ve never had and like (and deserve). My being hard on you is for you and selfishly for myself. I want you to be better so I can have you in this life longer, not dying young. I love you as a person in any way that you are and want to be, because you’re you, not for anything that you do.